31.05.2025.

31.05.2025

The day marks the end of the five months long training programme at BIPARD and as I sit down to try to summarise this unbelievable journey, I am reminded of 01.01.2025 - the first day of the year, as well as in BIPARD. I won’t deny that I wanted to leave from this institute the very same day. From getting my first ever saline bottle injection and nebuliser to fainting in the PT ground, there were innumerable first-hand and not-so-pleasant experiences here. The challenge was huge, both physical as well as emotional. But as we know, time heals it all. With time, things started becoming tolerable, not easy though. Everything was still challenging, but I was stronger than before, and each day I grew stronger. The days went by, complaining, crying, making plans to escape classes/pt and counting days left for going back to my home and family. Sitting continuously for ten hours is not an easy job for anybody and every class began with people ranting - क्या फालतू पढ़ा रहा है यार! And everyone had one thing to say at least once a day - “कैसे बीतेगा ये पाँच महीना” but here we are today, wondering “ कितना जल्दी बीत गया पाँच महीना“. Humans are never consistent in their feelings. We always long for what’s gone, living in the past and betraying the present. As I sit down in this empty room today, the walls stare back at me, telling me to finally be happy as it was time to go home. They have seen me crying to go back on innumerable nights and mornings. However, as I plan to depart, I suddenly feel an ounce of heaviness in my heart and how funny it is to feel this way. Maybe we humans don’t want to reach our destination, maybe we just want to keep waiting for it. Some faces will be remembered, most forgotten. Some incidents will remain with me, most will wither away. I can only conclude that you will never understand life.. at least I would never. 

 ⁃ Rajvi P