Who am I? I wish I had known.

The journey of life is progressing with experiences of pains & pleasures; trials & tribulations. Despite having felt to have travelled nearly half of the distance (if life could be imagined to be a distance to be traversed) it baffles me a lot when I find myself clueless as to who am I and what is the purpose of this travel?
Study of religious books and scriptures has also not been so fruitful to provide me the answer in full to the question what occurs in the mind at every opportune moment when I am at peace with myself.
Nor are the fellow travellers traveling with me in the person of mother, father, brother, wife, son or daughter, friends and relatives in the position to satisfy this inner urge of mine.
Also, nor are those known to have gained expertise, fame and glory in the field of solving knots of ignorance by their spiritual attainments proving of any help to me to let me know who am and what for am I.
Am I the 'name' with the help of which my friends and relatives know me?
                          Or
Am I the 'body' which is so dear to me?
                          Or
Am I the set of limbs and organs which has composed this'body'?
                          Or
Am I the subtle set of feelings that leaves me now angry, greedy, lewd & peeved and now happy, calm and joyously peaceful?
A little reflection is enough to lead me to the conclusion that I am none of these; not the least of any.
Then who am I?
The mind is clueless and restless in search of the answer.
They say you are but a tiny part of 'Him' Who can't be seen with the help of physical eyes. My mental eyes are not mature enough to see 'Him'.
Therefore, at best 'He' can be 'experienced' only;they say.
When would this sort of 'experience' I stand to gain?
They also say when this experience accrues to an individual the question like ''who am I'' melts to provide internal bliss. It is this blissful state of being I am exploring without requisite qualifications that a 'seeker' of the solution to this question should have.
R.R.Prabhakar.
11.03.2020.

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