Prabhakar reflections

     If only…... If only my father was rich I too would have…. If only I had lived in a better place I would have….. If only I had enough money… If only my children had some sense of care or compassion for their parents….  If only I hadn't inherited such a bad temper from my father... If only my subordinates were not so silly, lazy and without drive…. If only my boss wasn't a livid lunatic... If only my husband wasn't a controlling idiot... If only my wife was more understanding….. If only my kids were not so rebellious…. If only we were not in such a declining industry… If only other department didn't oppose my proposal If only the government had allocated sufficient funds… If only we had set out in time to reach the place…. If only… If only …...If only …….the wishes are endless. ******* ******* *********** *********** ********* We all;at some point of time or the other;in varying degrees,are affected by this "if only" syndrome. All the sentences starting wit...

          ऋष्यमूक पर्वत पर सुग्रीव अपने पार्षदों के साथ बैठे थे. ये उनके दुर्दिन के दौर थे. बालि भय से भयकम्पित सुग्रीव के लिए ऋष्यमूक पर्वत ही वह शरणस्थली थी जहां बालि शापवश नहीं आ सकता था. सदैव सशंकित सुग्रीव प्राणभय से अपने सुंदर गर्दन को घुमा-घुमाकर पर्वत के चहुंओर हमेशा यह देखने की कोशिश करता कि कहीं बालि ने उसकी टोह में कोई गुप्तचर तो नहीं भेजा है. सीतावियोग से दुखार्त राम-लक्ष्मण की आंखें सीतान्वेषण में तत्पर हो इधर-उधर देख रही थी. पर्वत पर बैठे सुग्रीव ने उन्हें दूर से हीं देख लिया. उन्हें देखते हुए सुग्रीव का हृदय शंका और भय से भर आया था. *********************************************** "हनुमान! क्या तुम भी वही देख रहे हो जो मैं देख रहा हूं?" सुग्रीव ने भयार्त नेत्रों से अपने सेवक हनुमान की तरफ देखकर कहा. "हनुमान! मुझे तो वे दोनों क्षत्रिय इधर हीं आते दिख रहे हैं. प्रत्यक्षतः ऐसा दिख रहा है कि ये किसी को खोज रहे हैं. हो न हो मेरे लिए ज्येष्ठ किंतु कालरुप बालि ने इन्हें मेरा पता लगाने भेजा हो. तुम उस बलिष्ठ बालि को नहीं जानते किंतु मैं उसके स्वभाव से भलि...

           Today is a holiday.The day came after a rigorous 5 days' work in the office. Understandably,I didn't want to pass it in a hectic way. So as a matter of my favourite choice I took to sleeping to pass the day in the most unnoticeable way at the cost of what would have come to me by moving outside for a stroll. After all, economics comes into picture even in things which are not related to economics. I remember that Samuelson has said- economics is all about how best to employ one's resources to alternative use to produce a thing of economic worth for present or future. Unlike many, sleeping happens to be my favourite pastime.The importance of sleeping is best understood when it eludes you and you chase it unsuccessfully to pass a sleepless night. So I respect this cool enterprise of mine.  Race horrifies me. It leaves me sleeping as a choice. ************************************************** But while sleeping, my daughter returned to get me ...

                    My daughter has to attend to her classes commencing from 9 am and I,too, have to be in my office at around 9.30. Therefore,with the dawn of the day, I and my daughter compete with one another in one's own way for being ready to leave home. But the noticeable difference for me is that she leaves her bed quite late to be ready earlier while I wake up earlier to "become" ready often late. Perhaps I fritter away time by way of roaming inside my three BHK aimlessly or looking at the newspaper which is a great time consuming avocation for me to find out therein what happened where. Despite my repeated reminders she has not improved her habit of rising late as I have not improved my habit of wasting time by way of being indecisive on matters that matter for me. While both of us return tired we beat our tiredness in one's own way. While she speaks to her mummy of what happened today in her class/college etc. I only talk of tr...